creative title here.

Life.

Life has been stressful for me lately.

Life has been long, tiring, and frustrating.

Basically, Life has been anything but enjoyable.

BUT.

Life is slowly coming back together as I reevaluate in starbucks. My worries and insecurities are fading away into a grande salted caramel hot cocoa. Something about that creamy mixture heated to the right temp, and enjoyed along with the cyber pals of starsbucks makes life happy. Life IS happy. simply. It’s when we complicate it with the “busies” and worries, that life is nothappy. I’ve found I'm good at making life stressful because of my curse for thinking.

this quote hit me like a rock.

Any intelligent fool can make things bigger, more complex, and more violent. It takes a touch of genius - and a lot of courage - to move in the opposite direction.

-E.F. Schumacher

I agree with E.F., but i would also like to add that life is change. growth. reevaluations. and though we make things bigger then they need to be sometimes, that's okay because that's when we realize what life is all about. finding the small moments in the big moments, and the big moments in the small moments.

Like when at starbucks and your favorite song comes on that reminds you of your favoritesomeone. When you observe two people who appear to haven't seen each other in ages embrace with tears in their eyes. When you realize that YOU made a difference in someone's life. When you get 100% on that test you have been studying for. or when you feel safe because of father's advice and a sister's love.

And it all comes together. Life is all about the little moments, while getting the big moments done. School is a big moment. It is my top priority now. but if i worry about school too much, i lose track of the moments of enjoyment.

In the words of Hanns Hoffman:

The ability to simplify means to eliminate the unnecessary so that the necessary may speak.

it's necessary i sleep more then 5 hours every night for weeks. it's necessary i eat right. it'snecessary i get my homework done. but it is necessary i get my scripture study in EVERY day. It's necessary that i build a relationship with Chirst. But it's vital i feel like myself.

So all this rambling, and thinking comes to the one conclusion: back to basics.

"The best things in life are nearest: Breath in your nostrils, light in your eyes, flowers at your feet, duties at your hand, the path of right just before you. Then do not grasp at the stars, but do life's plain, common work as it comes, certain that daily duties and daily bread are the sweetest things in life." -Robert Louis Stevenson

As i drain my last drop of hot cocoa, i'm going to the mountains to sit and observe nature, while planning my day, week, month, life. i'm going to breathe through my nostrils, and put the stressful life away to make way for happiness, to simply live.

thanks for housing my thoughts starbucks, you were worth my hour and a half and my 4 bucks.